28/01/2011

Finally....
My holiday is here...
hooray~
I had waited for it so long!!! =)
After the tuition on next monday and tuesday,
then I'm totally in holiday !!=)

Exactly,
for this starting,
I'm over care,
and make my life going to be lifeless,
stressful and frustrated....=(
Have no chance to manage it back to be better...
Sometime I will shout ,cry, and ask myself,
"Why I make my life be like this? Is it I wish to be that?"
Actually form6 is stressful if you doesn't know how to manage it..
(Just like me)
And honestly,
it will become your nightmare forever but not only one and the half year...=)
So,
in this holiday,
I will rest on my cny days,
but pack all my thing in the rest of the holiday...=)
Wish I can done what I wanna done..xD
Wish me please...xD

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Today and yesterday also got tuition~
Nope...I got tuition for weekdays actually...xD
But the last two days is most tired d tuition...
Cause at least one an hour to reach...
But usually that one hour I will kacau fishy or day-dream..xD
Today I got take a short nap....*a very short nap*
And keep annoying fishy~xD
After tuition,
we go buy some sweet....
and they keep buy those junk food..xD
All also pregnant jor~eat sour food much!xD
And then today just me ,joshua and boon kit take bus back first...
So we chat non-stop....xD
But just chat for half an hour,
both of them tired jor~
and joshua was feeling very not well...
omg~he look damn pucat lo~
Wish him feeling better in this holiday..=)
And can recover before cny...=)
By the way,
thanks boon kit send me back every thrus and fri...=)

Today in the school,
keep talk with soon keat on phy period...xD
Yes...I'm keep on blaming toward him...
Cause I'm suffering enough for this week..=(
You guys make me so so so DISAPPOINTED! =(
Luckily I still got soon keat and fishy~
My BFF...=)
I really release all my gas out already...
Thanks a lot!!! =)

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In this holiday,
still got lot of thing have to done...
omg...time management failed..zzz....
I wish I can do it better...=)

p's : just now s told me, c found a girl..and look like quite success..=(
p's : I think I should have my own aim....aim for something purposely for my future..=)
p's : finally i had post a first post after start school till now on my facebook!=)
p's : not yet have time to manage my blog...sad..=(

离别，改变，放学

朋友们再次的离别，
再次敲碎她弱小的心灵。。
朋友离别时，
她没哭，
没难过，
还笑着说再见。。
最后，
她还给了朋友一个抱抱。。

她最不舍得的，
是他。。
曾经说转校的是她，
而不是他。。
他的离开，
就像上次当她看到他吸烟的感觉一样。。
心里不舒服了一整天。。
或许因为是最后一个懂得原因吧？

她少了几个玩伴。。
虽然有时被欺负，
虽然有时被奚落，
但他们还是她很爱粘的朋友。。
他们的离开，
让她每天早上少了一股寻找他们的力气。。
因为都省下了~

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她们的变化，
她察觉得到。。
但是她了解，
难过是个人的问题，
无需让别人承受一样的感觉。。
她不再找他，
因为她知道他不会再理会她。。

她们让她明白了，
所有的东西，
都只是依靠个人的想法。。
无需多做，
只需尽自己的本分。。

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放学后下起毛毛雨，
又是思念的季节。。
想起了当初撑伞的他。。
想起当初紧握她手的他。。
想起现在牵着她人的手的他。。

上车后，
温暖的寿司，
温暖了她的心。。
其实真的有点小感动。。
她很谢谢那个买寿司给她的人。。

copyright@jinn cky 26/01

一个被抛弃的小孩

她，
只是一个小女生。。

她习惯的，
本来就不是沉静的世界。。
习惯了吵杂的生活，
又怎能习惯无语的时候呢？

当别人喜欢孤立她的时候，
她总会躲在一旁装忙。。
因为她最害怕尴尬。。
但是她并不渴望别人的一丝同情。
无需同情，
她要的本来就很简单。

她很喜欢胡思乱想，
是因为身边的朋友影响了吗？
但事实是，
她遇到了很多“与众不同”的朋友。

感情上的挫折，
让她不敢再往前走了。。
她宁可停在一旁休息个一年半载，
也不想再被丢弃。。

再怎么说，
她也只是一个没有人要的女孩。

copyright @ jinn cky 25/01

21/01/2011-bitch, baby,tuition, tq.

Today mood (or luck) not that good..
The HATRED make me fking headache! (apologize for using rude word)

Today before recess,
and I kena that HATRED's trick ! shit!><
She purposely to block prefect(s) go for recess,
and make us to be LATE! wtf!
Why can't she use her brain to think?
She mostly is use her ASS to think, is it?!!
and I'm very sorry to chia chia boom...
Actually I'm not sengaja to wrote you late...haiz~=(
I know you will be angry...
Ok..is my fault..>_<
Anyway,
special thanks to miss t,
you make us damn appreciate to what you had done....
"Thank you" very much!
I will treat you the same way in the future...=)

This morning,
I had went school,
and distributed out the form to promote the charity makan malam...
I just want to help my dad to promote it..
No matter you are joining or not,
when people are promoting it,
can't you being respect? @@
Yup...I'm small gas...
I just wish I could get some respect when I'm doing something...
I just try to finish up my mission,
but not trying to offence any one...><

And those books that I had sold out.....
It bring me some trouble...
Not really want to handle it already actually...
I feel tired when facing yours difficult...
Please...
Be not too over...
I got my own limit....
I won't get any benefit,
but just purposely help friend to sold out...
How come you guys so funny...zzz..

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At school,
I had received a message from seow hui...
She told us,
she had give birth to a baby girl...
hoo~congratz ah friend!
And wish you and your baby can stay health!=)

Then today got tuition after school...
and I having a serious headache before school time end...>_<
And I had fall asleep when manjeet and mun kit present...
I'm sorry ya guys...><

Today I followed zhi ying's car....
Then all of us kumpul at the same place,
and decide to go kl eat..
But I same bus with fishy them...

At beginning,
we have no place to sit,
so can't sleep...><
I just keep annoying to fishy~xD
But afterward I sat down le...
But they still standing...
Don't know wait for how long,
boon kit and fishy just found a place to sit..
But I sit quite far from them....*so lonely* T.T
Feel sleepy and wanna sleep,
but not yet get used on sleep at public place...><
Then fishy miss call me suddenly,
and ask me go sit behind with him~hahahas..xD
so touched...T.T
I sudah tau you won't leave me alone d...=)
Then we chat,
and I blame~hahahahaa!!xD

Then when tuition,
so hard to found a place to sit...
and fishy also did't let me sit alone...
Even boon kit there got an extra sit...
He just teman me to sit another place...
Thank you fishy very much...
Today I like you very much..
Is very touched when you teman me to do everything..=)

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After tuition,
boon kit and joshua them still got another tuition...
But I go back first ,with zhi ying and wei ming...
And today is wei ming's birthday,
so I spent him "red bean water" ..*lolx...my translation sound so funny..==" *
Then we go back...
And on the way to bus,
zhi ying asked,
"who are going to sit with kah yin later?"
Then I "har? no need la..=)"
Then I think zhi ying is quite worry about that...
So in the bus,
he shift to sit beside me..
So damn gentleman la him..=)
He is a good guy...
If not how come will send me back FOC..xD
Thank you zhi ying very much!!!!=)

By the way,
when I step in the bus,
the bus uncle suddenly talk to me :"hi, kah yin"
Walau..shock me...><

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Tomorrow is school day..
But I'm so lazy to go...
Ok la~My excuse is : I'm accidently flu..lolx~

p's: What reason cause me to wrote blog? cause I want to share something..xD
p's: Thank you yu qian and elaine become my first and second follower for my new blog..hahaha!!=)
p's: Thank you fishy and zhi ying today..=)

You tell lie..

Accidently break your lie....
Erm....
Because of your lie,
then I write this blog post?
Yea...You are quite important for me...
and I never expect you are TELLING LIE! =(

Normally I will tell others,
you are the best person that I ever meet...
But now just realise,
you are not that "best"....
I don't know what is the reason cause you to say so...

But you still not yet know ,
I know your SECRET...
I don't want say it out...
cause you are not that bad,
and I'm not that evil to say out people secret..

Actually If you did't tell me that,
" you won't do so, but if you have a partner"..
I would not say YOU TELL LIE..
But now I find out,
you did IT for one and the half year already...
Mean,
when you tell me that,
you already start to tell lie...
I don't know why you can say it so EASILY,
and just like a truth....
and the worst thing is,
I just believe what you said..
But I think I believe a wrong person...=(

Please...
I beg you...
Next time don't tell lie..
Or don't say so..
And just tell others your true feeling..

p's: Ever and ever, we are still caring your feeling...I did't talk bad about you actually...that time ask you go sit another side is because, I dislike IGNORE by people...but I don't know I make you sad..cause you are good...=(
p's: The only way to let me know you more, is keep your SECRET.
p's: I wish you won't view my blog..won't know about this..Even that you had tell lie..=(

19/01/2011- want to view or not is depend on you but not depend on me.

I'm start to getting less interest at here...
Here can bring many feel to me..
But actually I'm not really fully say out what I feel..
Feel I'm very troublesome? YES! I am..lolx~

Something cannot say out,
or something is not suit to say out..
IS BECAUSE :
Don't you know one year I can make many trouble through my mouth and my blog?hahaa!
And since I unlock it,
I cannot ensure who will be the viewer for it..

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Recently,
I'm breathless for my BUSY life...
Everyday ran here ran there...
Sometime really want to hang at one place,
and not really have any motivate to move in front..=(

Last night do homework till 1am ++...
Maybe this is still early for some people..
But honestly,
it break my record...lolx~
After start school,
I never sleep late than 12.30 am , I think...
But I feel so good after done my homework,
and got few paper work that I had done is on my hand...
Even very tired in the class,
but I feel proud for myself~xD
If I can keep this kind of attitude till mid-year,
my result sure can let me graduate..=)

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This few days,
our school got MESYUARAT AGUNG for those kelab & persatuan..
I felt sad lo~
Or maybe I shouldn't blame..
It's maybe is my own problem..
But anyway,
wanna tell you guys a joke..hahahas..xD
My dearest sister-katherine chia,
she get 11 votes..
But that stupid kr get 9 votes only..
buaha buaha!!!xD
Those votes is lose from us la..xD
And somemore I ask mr.s don't hand up~xD
If he hand up,
I will chop down his hand..hahahah!!!xD
And he told me,
he feel kr is useless d..
Ok...mr.s,
I'm totally agree to what you say!xD
But sometime you also have to behave abit,
since you are xxxxxxxx..... hehe...^^

By the way,
in this school,
nothing is let me wanna give them a "GOOD"...
"SHIT" then alot...zzz...
Everything is just a rubbish...
System also no good...
Exactly I'm DISLIKE this school!damn!

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Oh my goodness..
Today I get d time table..
I'm going to present my r&d on next monday...damn!!!!>_<
I thought after chinese new year...T.T
Pity me...><

Haiz..
Actually sometime I don't know what to say about you...
What you said is not same as what you do...
You like be the one very independence?
I'm not really think so..
But wanna tell you,
you should learn to respect people please...
No comment anymore.
As long as you are not make-ing me angry or sad..

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Fishy gave me too much note already...
I'm gonna die for it...
Yea...he FORCE me copy it through my hand....T.T

I tell you hor...
I think after my STPM,
I gonna vomit if I see any subject that I take in my STPM appear infront of me again!
It's too much..
As a conclusion,
government is very stupid..

The only way let me not to keep failed on my exam is STUDY...swt~

p's: Actually you don't know me~That day I angry is for specific reason that you can't understand..
p's: Is quite excited when having exam..hahahahha!!! I'm a nerd~xD
p's: Life is always like this..Have to work hard to get what you want..=(
p's: After that message,I know you are not going to bother me anymore..I'm sorry..=(

2 new videos..xD

I do my work till sienz jor...
So I record another 2 new videos..xD
listen ..xD
and may help me link it, if you are good lo~=)

1st song..



2nd song..


p's: I still feeling that, Im more cute than mashimaro lo~xD

12/01/2010 lunch, nerd, realise,cny.

So kind ah me...
Today come to update..xD
Exactly,
now I even on my pc also lazy..lolx~
So,
don't ask me online or what....
One word : lazy....zzz..

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This afternoon have lunch with another senior~xD
Because he promise me give me all his note,
so I have to date him out to get the note~=)
By the way,
great lunch,
nice chat,
and I kena zat for very teruk...>_<
But I like the moment of smile...xD
Even sometime we will feel awkward~xD
But really thanks for his note..
Very useful for me...=)

Just like what I say...
I built a good social network....
I have few good senior...
and few good friend...
and those "FEW" can make a big changes on me...=)
Thanks god...=)
and THE REST is should be my work...=)

Last week have lunch with kar hoo also feel quite happy..
Even chat till 4 something,
but I still feel the time is still early..hahas..xD
And thanks for both of you spent time have lunch with me..xD
and all of the theory you guys told me,
I will remember...=)

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Nerd's life ,
is not easy to be....
Maybe I still can remain my previous life style,
but it gonna destroy my future...
I feel scare for my "coming soon" exam -STPM...
This is not a joke...
Is a challenge for me to upgraded myself...
If I fail,
that's mean I'm not hardworking enough...
and I will waste my mum's money,
my time ,my energy,
and all senior(s) d taught...=(
I don't want be like that...
I'm sorry...
I have to be a NERD...
No more outgoing....=(

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Now I just realise,
from my lower six till now,
you are the only boy I got feeling...
really damn shit...>_<
So unexpected....
Now at school meet you,
I will feel awkward....=(

After start school till now,
I had make 2boys don't want talk with me already...=(
Ok...I'm sad.....
I don't know what happen actually....haiz~
So tired for bother those kind of thing...=(

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This chinese new year,
I gonna date some friend go out watch movie..hahahaha!!!
Or maybe I will give yours some trick?xD

Last sunday ACCIDENTLY online,
and kena zat by daniel....sei yea...><
Say I noob....
and say If I did't online anymore,
then "no more noob online already"....argh..><
ivan also call me noob already..
ok..fine....><
But I know you guys will miss me...hahahahaha!!!*perasannya*
Wait la...
After I stpm,
I will not be like this already...xD
As long as I'm still in yours memory...=)

p's: actually purposely online for ivan chow...and sambil update my blog..lolx~
p's: presentation like non-stop..I still got lot of work to prepare..zzz
p's: tomorrow got tuition near kasturi already..stick with FISHY! your nightmare start soon! =)
p's: Homework getting heavy and heavy..I'm getting breathless for it...=(

08/01/2011- update? lolx~ for a whole week thing...=)

Ok...This is a request from IVAN CHOW...
ask me to update...
But after this post,
I wish I can ignore my blog..
so you also may ignore my blog...

Just like what I say,
this time start school,
I don't really feel much different...

I'm much more busy than last year...wtf...><

Or maybe cause of just start school, I still can't get used on it only? @@

Ok la~ The thing I most lack is SLEEPING HOURS...

Nowadays if you ask me mostly after school is do what,

I will answer you : either sleep either do homework...zzz...

network is getting less and less in my current life..=(

Hey..go listen again la~huiyo~

My video clip la!!!=(

click here.



Simplify whole week d thing la....=(

3rd of jan.

1st start school...

became a LEADER of a group for prefect..

Liyen became my assistant then...

After school heavy rain..

kena shoot by driver..(did't bring umbrella or use umbrella..)

cause don't know take care self...=(

Decided to ask FISH change my facebook password...

To avoid me keep on addict...><

But he did't change for it for that day..

And that night argue with my dad...

I had cried..

Is a very sad d night...

He hurt me badly...><

By the way,

I just have to prove to him then...=)

Thanks for ivan's tissue...xD

and thanks for daniel's words....

EXACTLY,

daniel usually is very annoying...

but that night NOPE...

really thanks ! =)

4th of Jan

2nd day to school..

start to feel frustrated...x.x

At class,

something happen again....

hmmm...

I still thinking that,

is I over sensitive or you is that kind of person?

I trying to being quiet,

don't want join in or disturb you....

I wish I did't make a wrong decision...=(

Start to change my impression toward my current driver...

He is quite kind actually....

*know it from his way of spoke*

I feel lucky cause he is my driver then..hahhaha!!

Yea...after I graduate,

sure have to spend him abalon or what also can!

That day he gave me a MINNIE MOUSE KEY CHAIN bring back from HONG KONG d~xD

That night after tuition,

cause of mum came late,

teacher accompany me to wait..

Feel TOUCHED for that night! T.T

5th of Jan

Maths test was suck...

I kena trap again!damn shit..><

That day d most memorable thing is dated kar hoo for lunch!haha! =)

The most happy moment for that day cause chat with you for few hours..xD

And what I promise you,

keep as secret mah~xD

But that day I wait you wait till I wanna hentam you jor....><

Anyway,

wanna tell you,

EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE...

Just do what you should do...=)

and,

I feel 三生有幸cause know you..=)

6th of Jan

Start to afraid for my COMING SOON d STPM...=(

Maybe you can say I'm over worry..

But I wanna inform you,

one years is very short only!

and I just have one chance to graduate from form 6! =(

Anna absent for that day...

But we got presentation...

I thought I have to present alone already~

Luckily teacher did't ask to do so..

Really thanks to teacher....=)

Recess time met pn.lee,

and she joke with us...

Love it....xD

and I will enjoy all of the moment of her teaching time!

Teacher(s),I really love you all!

So,

I HAVE TO graduate from form6 !=)

7th of Jan...

hu~finally reach last day of a week!

I'm going 断气already~=(

Then after school me and huan have to go kajang tuition~

When think about that SUCK teacher,

I will feel regret for half year tuition at there!

By the way,

now change to another teacher teach..hahahaha!

His brother teach us...

HONESTLY,

BETTER ALOT LO!!!LOLX!

We will tuition at there on monday...

and I had slot all my tuition in weekdays..

So my weekend is for do homework and rest d..

No one can kacau it!

That day liyen give me a depress look..

and I really dislike to see it, k?

Can't you change your attitude?

I feel suck when you do so to me!

If is my fault ,

then just tell me...zzz.

After tuition with huan,

then we go pasar malam batu 11 d..*ngek ngek*

both of us everytime go out also searching for food only..hahas..xD

That day spend at least RM10++ for our food..hehe...=)

and I had bought 章鱼烧..

got three inside mah,

so I just bring back and share with my sis and mum..

I love to share...

Feel better...=)

I wish I had misunderstood L..

Allow me to apologize to her at here..

I'm sorry...=(

p's : till now,every words that kar hoo told me, still in my mind...you are so special, and can as a teladan that I should learn to be...=) Thanks to you a lot!

p's : Ivan, this post wasted 1 hour ++...and this is d main reason I don't want update...cause 1 hour can let me done few question of maths..hahahahha!!!

p's : going to stop all my network stuff...so got any urgent thing,just call me or sms me la...I willing to receive yours message lo..hahahaa!!!

p's: Just now open my facebook,and saw that jack ng remove d sibling..wtf? damn you +shit you lo! But I will not bother those people like you again~haiz...

p's :Recently is rainy season, "PREPARE UMBRELLA BEFORE RAINING! " hahas..xD

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